If you know me on a personal level, you know that part of my Noble Purpose as a “leader” is to be as transparent, raw, and vulnerable as possible in the name of sharing how and where I fail, and how I use my failures and unexpected, unforeseen “wipe-outs” to put me in a better place than I was before.

I’ve been through some doozies. A marriage destroyed by meth-amphetamines, ending in a restraining order, losing most of my possessions and my home . . .

But I was given a vision (one I hoped was just a teaching through awareness rather than personal experience) that if I am to truly step up as a leader, the kind I want to see in the world, then I will need to be open to sharing in my hardest moments, and I was shown that I would be given some hard moments to navigate.

So, if you’ve ever wanted to peek behind the curtains or listen in on those private conversations to see what REALLY happens to teachers and leaders when they're in their shit . . . here’s your chance.

Beyond just the focus on calling in Twin Flame love and knowing how to navigate it through deep, raw, uncensored, unfiltered, transparency, Gerwin and I are diving into the full spectrum that comes up when you’re human. Financial challenges, losing your home, core wounds getting triggered at the same time . . . All our messiest moments we are consciously having in a documented way that helps you to see how we walk our talk. We call them "Pillowcasts"

When I was little, I was told not to cry. I was threatened with “something to REALLY cry about,” if I showed any tears of grief or sadness.

It took me YEARS into my adulthood to be able to even cry in front of a partner, and even longer to be able to cry in front of more casual acquaintances. Never in front of strangers.

It is incredibly vulnerable to be willing to let you all see into my hardest, grief-filled moments, full of tears and snot, when I’m feeling the least resourced . . . but I also think it is important to let you all see it because these are the moments where so much gold can happen if you know how to find it.

I’ve been blessed with the ability to find it, and ever since I was a very little girl, seeing how some things were just easier for me that were very hard for others, I’ve been passionate about helping other people to access the same navigational skills for the challenges that happen to us as humans – death, loss, survival threats, heartbreak, betrayal, abandonment . . .

If you value this experience, then you are invited to see what this deep and intimate process is like. There is no better way than to experience it as present and real as possible. This is our gift of Love to you.

You are invited to be with us on our Journey with Love. Get in on our Pillowcasts that we are making of our deep conversations normally kept behind closed doors.

We want you to find the gold with us. We want you to live Royal Love and learn how to navigate the Epic Unknown that opens up when love stretches you beyond your comfort zone and starts purging you of all that is NOT love. (It makes Ayahuasca seem like Pepto-Bismo.)

You can learn more and get your free gift and start this powerful journey at our site: http://journeywithlove.us.

The thought of losing the home I’ve dedicated myself to and built my whole business around as a steward of this land, it has been a trauma that has hit me very deeply.

I’ve not been able to sleep much more than 2-4 hours each night, which has been going on for the past 10 days now. I’m so aware of the old survival-based programming. It goes into anxiety and panic and my whole body is in incredible pain. My heart feels like it’s folding in on itself, my head throbs, my whole body aches. My instincts are to jump into adrenalized action and “DO something about it!” And fortunately, I have learned that this doesn’t really help much. What is most important is to allow my nervous system to relax and come back into center and THEN I can make inspired, at-choice decisions that serve and are created from a resourced and stable place.

In fact, an old practice, inspired by a long time sister and friend, Sonya Sophia, world-renowned EFT practitioner, has deepened and expanded to a multi-dimensional access portal as a result of the potent energies that are being kicked up in this particular Kali Etch-A-Sketch life shakedown.

I’ve found that trauma and tragedy have gold that is not accessed any other way – insights, inspirations, growth . . . there’s a certain quality – because we would NEVER willingly sign up for them (deaths, losses, traumas) that make them particularly rare and precious. The gifts hidden inside of these shit-storms are priceless. I’ve been (un)fortunate to have been able to walk through a few of these shake-down shit-storms and find immense treasure.

That’s what my number one passion has been ever since I realized I could do this, but few other people even know it’s possible. To help everyone possible to be able to turn their hardest experiences into alchemical gifts of gold. Spiritual composting.

If you have any belief this might be true, but don’t know how to do this for yourself, I’ve created many resources – many of which are completely free, many are incredibly cheap, and some of them are full of all sorts of lovely bells and whistles that are an investment to experience. Whatever level – I’ve made it available for you to serve you.

Please let it serve you.

I’m going through a potent metamorphosis: Finding my Twin Flame, navigating long distance relationship, epic and quantum level personal growth, triggering core wounds for healing, unexpected shifts that are shaking my financial stability, losing my home. I have no idea how this all will turn out, but I am committed to being open with you so that you may have some inside scoop access to see an example from someone who’s been able to do it in a very good way, many times over. And now, I'll be doing it with my beloved partner, Gerwin