Posts by Amanda Elo’esh Johnsen, M.A.

The Shadows that Emerge when Ascending

In an instant, I had gone from an ecstatic DMT-like journey into excruciating pain. I was certain I was having a heart attack, and as I brought myself back into conscious awareness of my surroundings, I could see my partner smiling at me with a pleased look on his face. I knew I was in…

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3 Steps to Connection After a Wobble

At the end of this month, I will have spent 6 months of my life connecting, deepening and building the life of my prayers with my beloved, Ramadin. In some ways it feels like lifetimes because there is so much that feels solid, grounded, and deeply rooted. I almost can’t imagine (and honestly don’t particularly…

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Pain: a love story

Admitting to ourselves that we could have a better life is hard sometimes – especially if we have a “not good enough” wound. That realization sits right on that wound a pours the salt in generously. The the realization that we have to go in and feel all the feelings in order to heal them and let them go can feel like too much to take on. It’s easier to just sink back into the denial and the old coping mechanisms and hope that someone or something else will offer a quicker, easier relief.

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Ceremony: An Act of Rebellion

With so much engagement with programs and screens, ceremony is the new act of rebellion – to meet the Holy Unknown and break through to a new, elevated reality.

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How Your Low Self-Worth is Making You Come Off as an Ingrate

First off, I’ll say that I’m facing this one myself, so I’m speaking from personal experience as the arrogant ingrate. And I see it all around me. It’s heartbreaking that this painful trauma program can create such a paradoxical reality, and so I thought I would break it down a bit. Maybe you’ll see yourself…

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How I quit giving my power away to men (by surrendering)

I had the immense pleasure of receiving deep and profound healing recently. There are elements of my wounding that I have done so much work on and at some point, several years ago, got the message that I had done everything I could do for myself and needed someone else to assist me. Because so…

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The Problem with Science

There have been a LOT of posts about the importance of science, and science IS important, but . . . “science” can mean a LOT of things. Monsanto has science behind them but I don’t buy it. I have a friend who is a scientist who says that the reports she’s seen do not support…

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I’m sorry. I want to do better. Please read.

Hey Spiritual SuperSTAR; I want to acknowledge that I haven’t really been pouring the kind of deliciousness and value into this place that I have wanted. You deserve better, and I am going to make a commitment to you right now to start offering more of me to you. It has been exactly forever since I…

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The Trouble with Spin

We all do it in some form or another. We can’t help it. We feel connected with people and that changes how we communicate with them. We start to attune to their perspectives and that shifts how we see the world. But there is a point at which natural resonance and attunement shifts over into…

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A peek behind closed doors: Navigating a shit-storm as a leader

If you know me on a personal level, you know that part of my Noble Purpose as a “leader” is to be as transparent, raw, and vulnerable as possible in the name of sharing how and where I fail, and how I use my failures and unexpected, unforeseen “wipe-outs” to put me in a better…

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The Sacred Feminine Revolution

On the dynamic of women vs. men.   This has been percolating for me for a very long time. I’ve sat down to write many times, but the words just haven’t come out right. Still not sure they are as efficient as they could be, but I do want to share from my heart.  …

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“I feel like a failure in my life.” Here’s what to do.

This topic comes up often for my clients, and even for me. It’s true. No matter how much money you make, or how many loving relationships, or how much success a person has, there are still little mental gremlins that try to convince us that we’re not worthy, that we’re failures in some way (or…

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What’s the meaning of life? Answer

Hey Superstar; No big whoop. I’m just going to share with you what Creator told me about the meaning of life. https://youtu.be/9FDQFK1Rtsw to get the scoop. And of course, just because you know, doesn’t mean you have all the tools to actually integrate and put it into practice. But don’t worry! I can help. Get…

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